I had an amazing Easter. It was the best service ever! And today I am here with my thoughts alone in my room.  I read a quote once from Donald Trump that he makes every decision about what to do do in the future based solely on the present moment. Today making choices about what to do regarding my business there's a little struggle.  I love myself and in the interest of myself I like to be indoors and eat meals that generally consist of the basic food groups. I'm not even being funny. In my endeavors to address my current state of affairs I have gotten some coaching, read some books, revamped my resume gone on some auditions, applied for several jobs, been loved and encouraged, supported, worn out my welcome, asked  for help, laid down my pride, cried, prayed, meditated, affirmed, denied, released, taken responsibility, sang, drank, smoked, blamed, healed, forgave,and sometimes it feels as if I've done nothing at all.
So today I ask myself what else can I do that would be different from everything.  What is a unique thought I could have in the midst of what appears to be the same ole shit.  Honestly I haven't thought of anything yet.  I'm sure an answer will come but I won't be asking anyone's advice or calling anyone to talk about it.  today I declare that the God within me is enough, more than enough, plenty. Any answers will have to come from within.  All this time I've known that I am unique. There's only one expression called Ifamodupe Kimberley Marie Edington. And as that which we call God expresses as Ifamodupe Kimberley Marie Edington it's not to look sound, smell, feel, or be as anything already in the Earth otherwise there is no need for me.  I guess there's no box to wrap me up in so everybody knows I am a gift.  So as much as I would love to follow instruction and advice, today I realize that in order to work the law I have to find myself in it. Cause I have done all the shit and it still sucks.  Everyday I awake grateful, willing, and here for God.  I am determined to give all I got before I go. For now that's all I got.