Reflections

I rarely look back, so much is happening right before my eyes. However I recently had the privilege to reflect on the opportunities for service that I have had in my Life. I can truly say that service has served me well. it seems that ever since I was a pre-teen I have been preoccupied with spiritual things. I can remember in middle school fasting with the church I was attending for 10 days and trying to pay attention in class. I can only imagine what my parents must have been thinking.
Even their background and spiritual interests were of the most importance to me. There is an attraction I have to the process of unfoldment, the spiritual journey, we sometimes call it. In hindsight I think I was always trying to crack the code, map the process. I was looking for the way to enlightenment. Interestingly, I was always alone. Even becoming a part of spiritual communities didn't provide the sense of camaraderie I had been searching for. I always felt that I was in alien territory, even in my family. So, I developed a capacity to "help." It was my way of fostering a connection to other people, mainly because I felt oddball. After a while I did experience that connection. As I grew, I also experienced a profound sense of Love. In realizing we are all one and what you do for others you ultimately do for Self, I began to receive on a whole new level, the more I gave of myself. It was a little intoxicating at first, coming from a sense that no good deed goes unpunished to experiencing the bliss of being a need answered, knowing still that what is true for one is true for all. I have with a few small adjustments in my thinking, experienced both sides of the coin. And really that is the point, giving and receiving are two sides of the same coin. It's just a thought, so they say. It's a thing.