Greetings Beloved
This has been an interesting first half of 2012 and it IS at the halfway mark. Well, all I can say is the show must go on.;)
There have been some moments doubt and frustration, mostly with myself. However, those moments have lost their significance to the moments of creativity and hope and joy, that quiet peaceful joy that reassures me that it's happening. So, stay tuned, sooner than later you will see a new thing. new music, new poetry, new businesses and renewal. I have been busy working on the new pre-production studio, putting the finishing touches on the fulfillments for the indiegogo campaign(thank you for your patience), and laying the foundation to get more music out faster more consistently and to more people in excellence. I've been given some amazing divine ideas and stretching to receive them in consciousness and making them real. The real work is aligning the head and heart and hand. As God leads guides and directs me on my path may it be a blessing to us all. Peace.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Friday, May 4, 2012
Accessorize Me/The Queen of Style: STYLE MAVENS THAT I ADORE!
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Monday, April 9, 2012
I had an amazing Easter. It was the best service ever! And today I am here with my thoughts alone in my room. I read a quote once from Donald Trump that he makes every decision about what to do do in the future based solely on the present moment. Today making choices about what to do regarding my business there's a little struggle. I love myself and in the interest of myself I like to be indoors and eat meals that generally consist of the basic food groups. I'm not even being funny. In my endeavors to address my current state of affairs I have gotten some coaching, read some books, revamped my resume gone on some auditions, applied for several jobs, been loved and encouraged, supported, worn out my welcome, asked for help, laid down my pride, cried, prayed, meditated, affirmed, denied, released, taken responsibility, sang, drank, smoked, blamed, healed, forgave,and sometimes it feels as if I've done nothing at all.
So today I ask myself what else can I do that would be different from everything. What is a unique thought I could have in the midst of what appears to be the same ole shit. Honestly I haven't thought of anything yet. I'm sure an answer will come but I won't be asking anyone's advice or calling anyone to talk about it. today I declare that the God within me is enough, more than enough, plenty. Any answers will have to come from within. All this time I've known that I am unique. There's only one expression called Ifamodupe Kimberley Marie Edington. And as that which we call God expresses as Ifamodupe Kimberley Marie Edington it's not to look sound, smell, feel, or be as anything already in the Earth otherwise there is no need for me. I guess there's no box to wrap me up in so everybody knows I am a gift. So as much as I would love to follow instruction and advice, today I realize that in order to work the law I have to find myself in it. Cause I have done all the shit and it still sucks. Everyday I awake grateful, willing, and here for God. I am determined to give all I got before I go. For now that's all I got.
So today I ask myself what else can I do that would be different from everything. What is a unique thought I could have in the midst of what appears to be the same ole shit. Honestly I haven't thought of anything yet. I'm sure an answer will come but I won't be asking anyone's advice or calling anyone to talk about it. today I declare that the God within me is enough, more than enough, plenty. Any answers will have to come from within. All this time I've known that I am unique. There's only one expression called Ifamodupe Kimberley Marie Edington. And as that which we call God expresses as Ifamodupe Kimberley Marie Edington it's not to look sound, smell, feel, or be as anything already in the Earth otherwise there is no need for me. I guess there's no box to wrap me up in so everybody knows I am a gift. So as much as I would love to follow instruction and advice, today I realize that in order to work the law I have to find myself in it. Cause I have done all the shit and it still sucks. Everyday I awake grateful, willing, and here for God. I am determined to give all I got before I go. For now that's all I got.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Reflections
I rarely look back, so much is happening right before my eyes. However I recently had the privilege to reflect on the opportunities for service that I have had in my Life. I can truly say that service has served me well. it seems that ever since I was a pre-teen I have been preoccupied with spiritual things. I can remember in middle school fasting with the church I was attending for 10 days and trying to pay attention in class. I can only imagine what my parents must have been thinking.
Even their background and spiritual interests were of the most importance to me. There is an attraction I have to the process of unfoldment, the spiritual journey, we sometimes call it. In hindsight I think I was always trying to crack the code, map the process. I was looking for the way to enlightenment. Interestingly, I was always alone. Even becoming a part of spiritual communities didn't provide the sense of camaraderie I had been searching for. I always felt that I was in alien territory, even in my family. So, I developed a capacity to "help." It was my way of fostering a connection to other people, mainly because I felt oddball. After a while I did experience that connection. As I grew, I also experienced a profound sense of Love. In realizing we are all one and what you do for others you ultimately do for Self, I began to receive on a whole new level, the more I gave of myself. It was a little intoxicating at first, coming from a sense that no good deed goes unpunished to experiencing the bliss of being a need answered, knowing still that what is true for one is true for all. I have with a few small adjustments in my thinking, experienced both sides of the coin. And really that is the point, giving and receiving are two sides of the same coin. It's just a thought, so they say. It's a thing.
Even their background and spiritual interests were of the most importance to me. There is an attraction I have to the process of unfoldment, the spiritual journey, we sometimes call it. In hindsight I think I was always trying to crack the code, map the process. I was looking for the way to enlightenment. Interestingly, I was always alone. Even becoming a part of spiritual communities didn't provide the sense of camaraderie I had been searching for. I always felt that I was in alien territory, even in my family. So, I developed a capacity to "help." It was my way of fostering a connection to other people, mainly because I felt oddball. After a while I did experience that connection. As I grew, I also experienced a profound sense of Love. In realizing we are all one and what you do for others you ultimately do for Self, I began to receive on a whole new level, the more I gave of myself. It was a little intoxicating at first, coming from a sense that no good deed goes unpunished to experiencing the bliss of being a need answered, knowing still that what is true for one is true for all. I have with a few small adjustments in my thinking, experienced both sides of the coin. And really that is the point, giving and receiving are two sides of the same coin. It's just a thought, so they say. It's a thing.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
midnight musing
I woke up realizing that ultimately, my Love life as it were, is made up as much by the Love's I choose to release as it is the Love that I cling to. Not just the men themselves, because in this case I am speaking of men, but even the way I release and continue to hold. Everything has a quality, a texture, a color, a tone. Being a rich child of God often means that you get to do the difficult thing with ease and grace, jewel-toned even.
I imagine each of my lovers as a treasure of inestimable value that has been deposited directly in my path. I appreciate the miracle each of us is. Then move to make an appropriate relationship. Often I am overtaken by my own affinity for nice things and I prematurely adorn myself, or indulge myself with their bling. But I can never stop being the star that I would hitch my wagon to. in other words: I love hard and fast and never more than I love myself. I believe paths may cross and run alongside each other for miles and in some cases merge. Regardless, one always has their own way to go, an individualized calling of purpose, spiritual evolution and expression as unique as one's Self, and full of the infinite possibility we each are.
If it seems that I am talking in circles, I am. The concentric circles of Life. Patterns that expand and are continuous because the Source is the same. We are all one and when we release someone or some behaviour in regard to some one, we trade one type of relationship for another. If, in the movement of all these parts of ourselves and others, we are conscious of our oneness, we are consciously co-creating this Love life.
I choose Love because I have experienced all the fear I care to and much I did not care to. Also, I realize that with Love I am opening the doors and windows and becoming a magnet for my highest good to flow in, through, and as me in every situation. Fear is a possibility killer. When I am in Love, I am an expression of the touch, the taste, the feel, and the sound of Love. I have found it to be a language that is easily understood. It has a million ways to say YES.
When I am face to face with a lover who I am clear I must release again I say yes. I say yes, I will have the Love life that works for me and my lover. Yes, I am willing to let go of what I don't want for what I desire at my core. Yes, I know it is seeking me as I am seeking it. Yes, I am good. Yes, you are good. Yes, let's both have, instead of each other, what is good for us.
Also, when I am face to face with a lover that I am clear I am called to be with I say yes. Yes, I am present and available. Yes, I am intentionally being a beneficent presence in your life. Yes, I will be truthful. Yes, I agree. Yes, let's play. Yes, I choose you.
Yes is a declaration of freedom, in this way. Giving the heart freedom to be open and receptive. This heart stands in all of it's power and chooses. Of course, there is the way of obligation, the way of fear. There are always options; there are always possibilities. It is our way of being that allows us to be aware of those possibilities in every situation. When my heart swells I will not tie it down or try to repress it in any way. I open myself and let the Love flow. I find the yes. Try it.
Be with me now
In every breath and
every movement
let's know more ourselves and each other
we are here
not by accident
open the sanctuary doors and
I will pray at the altar
of the Divine
within you
I am grateful
to reach the steps of your
temple
you can trust my reverence
will not expire
I hear the call
to prayer
and remove my shoes
you do the same
and when we touch
smelling the incense
meant for us
this heaven
where tears once were
we have a birthed a
light that cannot die.
I imagine each of my lovers as a treasure of inestimable value that has been deposited directly in my path. I appreciate the miracle each of us is. Then move to make an appropriate relationship. Often I am overtaken by my own affinity for nice things and I prematurely adorn myself, or indulge myself with their bling. But I can never stop being the star that I would hitch my wagon to. in other words: I love hard and fast and never more than I love myself. I believe paths may cross and run alongside each other for miles and in some cases merge. Regardless, one always has their own way to go, an individualized calling of purpose, spiritual evolution and expression as unique as one's Self, and full of the infinite possibility we each are.
If it seems that I am talking in circles, I am. The concentric circles of Life. Patterns that expand and are continuous because the Source is the same. We are all one and when we release someone or some behaviour in regard to some one, we trade one type of relationship for another. If, in the movement of all these parts of ourselves and others, we are conscious of our oneness, we are consciously co-creating this Love life.
I choose Love because I have experienced all the fear I care to and much I did not care to. Also, I realize that with Love I am opening the doors and windows and becoming a magnet for my highest good to flow in, through, and as me in every situation. Fear is a possibility killer. When I am in Love, I am an expression of the touch, the taste, the feel, and the sound of Love. I have found it to be a language that is easily understood. It has a million ways to say YES.
When I am face to face with a lover who I am clear I must release again I say yes. I say yes, I will have the Love life that works for me and my lover. Yes, I am willing to let go of what I don't want for what I desire at my core. Yes, I know it is seeking me as I am seeking it. Yes, I am good. Yes, you are good. Yes, let's both have, instead of each other, what is good for us.
Also, when I am face to face with a lover that I am clear I am called to be with I say yes. Yes, I am present and available. Yes, I am intentionally being a beneficent presence in your life. Yes, I will be truthful. Yes, I agree. Yes, let's play. Yes, I choose you.
Yes is a declaration of freedom, in this way. Giving the heart freedom to be open and receptive. This heart stands in all of it's power and chooses. Of course, there is the way of obligation, the way of fear. There are always options; there are always possibilities. It is our way of being that allows us to be aware of those possibilities in every situation. When my heart swells I will not tie it down or try to repress it in any way. I open myself and let the Love flow. I find the yes. Try it.
Be with me now
In every breath and
every movement
let's know more ourselves and each other
we are here
not by accident
open the sanctuary doors and
I will pray at the altar
of the Divine
within you
I am grateful
to reach the steps of your
temple
you can trust my reverence
will not expire
I hear the call
to prayer
and remove my shoes
you do the same
and when we touch
smelling the incense
meant for us
this heaven
where tears once were
we have a birthed a
light that cannot die.
Monday, January 31, 2011
That's why your feet hurt...
Someone once told me that at any given time the best I could do would be to stop kidding myself...then laughed, ironically. It's not uncommon in my experience for a friend to give me profound advice in a joking manner. But come on, stop kidding yourself, ha ha. When I thought about it I realized that very often, that's how life is.
There's an African proverb that describes the creation of the universe from itself as beginning with a "rebounding force." The back and forth movement that is present in the creation of all things. Even our thoughts may waiver on a point of focus. We may see the end result and begin to flesh out the details of what we are creating. But as the form takes shape in our mind capturing the texture of each quality we are expressing in the creation of this "thing" feels sometimes like trying to get in on double-dutch. We may even get hit in the head with one or both of the ropes before we finally get it together. And as is true with double-dutching the more you practice the better you become.
Think about it(ha ha), everyday I look at a vision board with images that I designed to provoke and help to maintain the feeling of having my BIG dream fulfilled. It covers several areas of life: romance, community, finances, work, image and so forth. So every morning I leave the house living my dream...then life happens. By three in the afternoon my dream may be deferred quite a bit. However, I have noticed my mornings are gaining increased momentum. I'm hanging out in my dream longer and longer and it is becoming clearer and clearer. And let me clarify, I don't spend my time imagining I'm somewhere else and daydreaming. Again, I am operating in full possession of the qualities that I want to express as a part of my BIG dream. That part, of course, being me. I am living from my desire fulfilled. So I am even more present to what is, with the understanding that it is an essential part of what needs to occur to get me to my dream. But first I really did stop kidding myself. I have learned is how to recognize the "not quite my dream" come true, and say "No, thank you." Choosing the real me and my actual desire everyday.
If God really is everywhere, and there is no where that God is not. And God is substance taking the perfect form for my life then why compromise?
There's an African proverb that describes the creation of the universe from itself as beginning with a "rebounding force." The back and forth movement that is present in the creation of all things. Even our thoughts may waiver on a point of focus. We may see the end result and begin to flesh out the details of what we are creating. But as the form takes shape in our mind capturing the texture of each quality we are expressing in the creation of this "thing" feels sometimes like trying to get in on double-dutch. We may even get hit in the head with one or both of the ropes before we finally get it together. And as is true with double-dutching the more you practice the better you become.
Think about it(ha ha), everyday I look at a vision board with images that I designed to provoke and help to maintain the feeling of having my BIG dream fulfilled. It covers several areas of life: romance, community, finances, work, image and so forth. So every morning I leave the house living my dream...then life happens. By three in the afternoon my dream may be deferred quite a bit. However, I have noticed my mornings are gaining increased momentum. I'm hanging out in my dream longer and longer and it is becoming clearer and clearer. And let me clarify, I don't spend my time imagining I'm somewhere else and daydreaming. Again, I am operating in full possession of the qualities that I want to express as a part of my BIG dream. That part, of course, being me. I am living from my desire fulfilled. So I am even more present to what is, with the understanding that it is an essential part of what needs to occur to get me to my dream. But first I really did stop kidding myself. I have learned is how to recognize the "not quite my dream" come true, and say "No, thank you." Choosing the real me and my actual desire everyday.
If God really is everywhere, and there is no where that God is not. And God is substance taking the perfect form for my life then why compromise?
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
A Lovely Day
With any luck at all, I die daily, and wake up celebrating my own birth. However, once a year I have the privilege of celebrating coming into the Earth with this package of attributes called "God,I am grateful" Ifamodupe. It is a wonderous experience and one well worth celebration and I am blessed to be surrounded by an amazing group of friends, family and loved ones who want to celebrate this day as well. I want to say thank you to everyone who has shared this benchmark with me. I have had an amazing year full of excitement, passion, tears, work, music, pain, love, change, in short life. A year full of Life. I am grateful for every bit of it. And I intend to increase the volume, intensity, and bass for the coming year(s). God is good and so is everything God has made, including me, including you.
I had an aha moment this morning....All my life I've complained about my birthday being so close to Thanksgiving...It has been God's way of reminding me to start the party now! So, even though it weirds me out when people talk to themselves in the third person, I wake up every morning and say of myself, what for. I say "Ifamodupe for a wonderful life. Ifamodupe for a day of infinite possibility and perfect opportunity. Ifamodupe for God as my source."
Creation is finished. Unfoldment, not hardly...Watch out!
I had an aha moment this morning....All my life I've complained about my birthday being so close to Thanksgiving...It has been God's way of reminding me to start the party now! So, even though it weirds me out when people talk to themselves in the third person, I wake up every morning and say of myself, what for. I say "Ifamodupe for a wonderful life. Ifamodupe for a day of infinite possibility and perfect opportunity. Ifamodupe for God as my source."
Creation is finished. Unfoldment, not hardly...Watch out!
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