Could you be LOVE(d)!?

I am always nervous when I am dating someone and my heart starts to swell. Even though to speak of Love is taboo I live my life by my heart and how it moves. For me there is no wiggle room around love. Maybe around romance, but not around love as I feel it, or don't feel it and affirm it. I know that all God is, is Love and Love in it's truest is GOD. I only worry that one of us won't remember in the throes of passion that God is here on my sleeve, as selfish as it sounds. I think sometimes that I'm scared my God will get bruised. It's really my ego that I'm afraid for.Which of us will be brave and take the plunge into the depths of the heart? Who will step into the light of love professed fully without regard for the response? Who will love first, me? I'm scared but I'll probably do it anyway. It's fun to have been brave. Before, I don't know. Then you have to ask yourself, or at least I do, can you really lose in love.

They say artists don't care what other people think. I'm not sure that is the whole truth but what if we were to love as an art;not for gain of any sort, not for popularity, not for anything, just for the sake of love. It is said that for lovers and angels everything sparkles. Would the world then sparkle for us. Would God's omnipresence then become real to us, and we would begin to see God everywhere? Would small things take on new dimensions? We may gain a sixth sense, a sense of the miraculous. It is a reminder that being in love is not just for couples it is found there but it is for us all individually. When you find yourself in love you find yourself, connected with all things, divine. Love someone else from there, I dare you. Better yet love everyone from there. Allow the world to sparkle brighter than the dimming thoughts of what may or may not occur as a result of loving. We are each responsible for setting the atmosphere for a miracle to occur in our lives. And be not confused, when someone loves you it is miraculous, especially when that someone is you. Loving ourselves enough to feel the miracle of God within is an absolute act of gratitude. I will never believe that there is something you can do to deserve or earn God's love or care. I do however believe that we can choose to not accept God's love.

Maybe you have had the experience of anticipating God's response to something you've done, I have. I have also experienced a self-fulfilling prophecy. I tend to think these two experiences easily align. You must decide this for yourself. I diligently guard against my brains efforts to wrap itself around God. I contemplate the qualities of God and imagine them emanating from myself as I know I am made in God's image and likeness. But I am clear that I will not wrap my mind around God, except to box God in, thereby blocking the miraculous. There is a reason why it's called eternal.

Take a breath. Bring to mind whatever would make you fall in love with life itself. Bring to mind that which you feel will make your life a perfect experience of God. Whatever it is, money, job, relationship, behavior, whatever it is. I acknowledge that this is thing is important. It is important to you, to me and to God. Now, take another breath. Give it color, shape and size and hold it in your hand, both hands if need be. Now, give yourself permission to release it to God. Watch it leave your hand level with your heart and dissolve into the presence of God that surrounds you. Know in your heart, it is done. God loves you and whatever it is that we imagine is the holdup is subject to what we know and can imagine. God is not. Therefore, we know that the highest and best good that is for us may well be beyond what we can fathom. Still, we open ourselves, our minds, our hearts, lives, arms to receive just that; our best and highest good.
Be Blessed, Be Well, Be Present.

"It won't be long, it's not very far away. You will see me in an abundance of blessings!" African proverb.

Things we hold, Dear.

It is apparent that in every moment of our lives we are creating something, believing in something, focused on something. It is whatever our lives are. And, at any moment we can choose what that we create, believe in and focus on, even change it if you will.

When I asked a very wise and trusted mentor about the events that seem to recur without my conscious consent. She simply replied those are the "things we hold, Dear." Those thoughts and beliefs that we refuse to release whether or not they serve us. These issues will continue to make themselves apparent to us without our conscious consent, choosing or desire. Our souls know much better than we think we do. The Christ within will clean house. The question is then, will we let the clutter go. Because in essence that is what a belief that no longer serves us amounts to. What happens is that beliefs drive behavior and experiences. So we end up with a bunch of (inside expletive here) crap happening and piling up in our lives.

Here's the good news, we have everything we need to keep this under control. I discovered the same thing that makes me look in a mirror when I pass one, second-guess my decisions; the driving force behind my impulse to fish for compliments is the one thing that can help me here. In the words of Kanye West "I'm so self-conscious..." Finally I can use my powers for good.

Self conscious means to be conscious/aware of oneself or one's own being. This awareness of our being; our thoughts, beliefs, and the actions they motivate determine, to a great degree, the quality of our lives.

Take a breath. Right now in this moment I challenge you to want the very best for yourself. Want it baaaaaaaaad! Bad enough to pay attention to what you're thinking every moment like you are guarding your most precious possession, yourself. Just take notice of what you really believe. If it seems convoluted to glean it(what you believe) from your thoughts then look at what you do and what your life is doing. Just take notice for a while. Do not judge yourself, love yourself. Remember that love and judgement, in this sense, cannot coexist. Then in the power of all the love that you can give yourself right where you are, make a choice. Choose what you believe in. Choose where you will place your focus. Choose your thoughts. Choose what you will create. Use your power for Go(o)d.

Be Well, Be Present, Beloved.

Almost Sprung

I love how in a moment of clarity we question how someone else could do what they do, that seems to us, to be so far off the mark. Maybe without our projected interference they are not off the mark at all or even just a smidge(is that a word?). At any rate, when you miss it could be a moment or a mile. It can all be very devastating. To stay focused enough to try again rather than lamenting our failure is a gift few have been/are willing to accept. This is my prayer for myself and I will share it with you as we prepare for spring and the coming anew of all life;

God I thank you in advance for allowing me to see beyond my own faults and press toward the mark. I thank you that in every moment I have the courage to choose your love over all distractions that may be calling me to build a web around myself of self pity and mediocrity. Instead, I am in awe of the beauty of your call. The sweetness of your voice. I am surrounded by your love and light inside and out. I am safe remembering Life is for me. God is for me. Whatever is against me I give no recognition. It has no place in my thoughts because I know that through the Christ in me, my thoughts become things. So I am thinking only of those things that God has given to me for us to create knowing that whatever there is for me to do is set right before me and the rest will be. In the infinity that God is I cannot fathom the way that things get done . Knowing God I know that they are done. I remember that the provision is made for me before I have knowledge of it's need or even want. I am made always aware of the care and attention that has been place on details in the crafting of the universe by simply looking at nature; At the turn of the season; At the flowers; At the trees. I look at my own body and know that every crevice, turn and point and curve were masterfully intentional. I am crafted by the most high God. I remain as a "unique unrepeatable miracle of God"(Rev. Kevin Kitrell Ross). I am grateful that the majority of its functions God tends everyday and I have not ever controlled. These are the things that work just fine just as all other laws of God including my thoughts become things. As a man thinketh...My thoughts turn to gratitude to the nature of God and return to gratitude. Amen and Ashe