Things we hold, Dear.

It is apparent that in every moment of our lives we are creating something, believing in something, focused on something. It is whatever our lives are. And, at any moment we can choose what that we create, believe in and focus on, even change it if you will.

When I asked a very wise and trusted mentor about the events that seem to recur without my conscious consent. She simply replied those are the "things we hold, Dear." Those thoughts and beliefs that we refuse to release whether or not they serve us. These issues will continue to make themselves apparent to us without our conscious consent, choosing or desire. Our souls know much better than we think we do. The Christ within will clean house. The question is then, will we let the clutter go. Because in essence that is what a belief that no longer serves us amounts to. What happens is that beliefs drive behavior and experiences. So we end up with a bunch of (inside expletive here) crap happening and piling up in our lives.

Here's the good news, we have everything we need to keep this under control. I discovered the same thing that makes me look in a mirror when I pass one, second-guess my decisions; the driving force behind my impulse to fish for compliments is the one thing that can help me here. In the words of Kanye West "I'm so self-conscious..." Finally I can use my powers for good.

Self conscious means to be conscious/aware of oneself or one's own being. This awareness of our being; our thoughts, beliefs, and the actions they motivate determine, to a great degree, the quality of our lives.

Take a breath. Right now in this moment I challenge you to want the very best for yourself. Want it baaaaaaaaad! Bad enough to pay attention to what you're thinking every moment like you are guarding your most precious possession, yourself. Just take notice of what you really believe. If it seems convoluted to glean it(what you believe) from your thoughts then look at what you do and what your life is doing. Just take notice for a while. Do not judge yourself, love yourself. Remember that love and judgement, in this sense, cannot coexist. Then in the power of all the love that you can give yourself right where you are, make a choice. Choose what you believe in. Choose where you will place your focus. Choose your thoughts. Choose what you will create. Use your power for Go(o)d.

Be Well, Be Present, Beloved.